Bug\u00fcn ihtiyac\u0131m olan birka\u00e7 teknik h\u0131rdavat malzemesini almak i\u00e7in esnaf gezerken, yirmili ya\u015flarda gen\u00e7 bir adamla tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Sohbetimizi sevmi\u015f olacak ki,<\/p>\n
\u201cAbi vaktin varsa otur bir \u00e7ay i\u00e7elim,\u201d diye \u0131srar etti \u2615<\/p>\n
Laf laf\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u2026 \u00dc\u00e7 be\u015f farkl\u0131 konudan konu\u015furken birden durdu ve dedi ki:<\/p>\n
\u201cAbi senin a\u011fz\u0131n \u00e7ok g\u00fczel laf yap\u0131yor. Bana bir mektup yazsana ya da \u015fiir gibi bir \u015fey\u2026 Sevdi\u011fim k\u0131za vereyim. Bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131lam\u0131yorum.\u201d<\/p>\n
Bu s\u00f6zler, zihnimde ortaokul ikinci s\u0131n\u0131ftan bir an\u0131y\u0131 canland\u0131rd\u0131. Ona da anlatt\u0131m, \u015fimdi seninle de payla\u015fay\u0131m \ud83d\ude0a<\/p>\n
O d\u00f6nem y\u00fcz\u00fcmde ve v\u00fccudumda k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fcnt\u00fcler \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Doktora gittik; ge\u00e7 gelen k\u0131zam\u0131km\u0131\u015f. Bula\u015f\u0131c\u0131 oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in rapor verdiler. Evde, soka\u011fa bakan cam\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcndeki kanepede yat\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Tam o g\u00fcnlerde yan apartmana yeni bir aile ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131. B\u00fcy\u00fckler e\u015fyalarla u\u011fra\u015f\u0131rken, b\u00fcy\u00fck k\u0131zlar\u0131 karde\u015fiyle birlikte benim cam\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde oynamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Aman Allah\u2019\u0131m\u2026 Hasta yata\u011f\u0131ndan bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu k\u0131z, sanki bir peri k\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131. A\u015f\u0131k olmu\u015ftum.<\/p>\n
\u0130yile\u015fip soka\u011fa \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nca denk getirip \u201cho\u015f geldiniz\u201d dedim. Sonra birka\u00e7 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck diyalog\u2026 Ama ben bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc as\u0131l meseleyi s\u00f6yleyemiyordum.<\/p>\n
Derken okulda teneff\u00fcste, romantik ruhlu arkada\u015f\u0131m Ali O. ile bankta oturuyorduk. Ara s\u0131ra \u015fiir yazard\u0131. O g\u00fcn bir \u015fiir m\u0131r\u0131ldanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u2026 Kalbimden vurdu beni.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015fte yol buydu!<\/p>\n
\u201cAli\u2019ci\u011fim,\u201d dedim, \u201cbu \u015fiiri ne zaman yazd\u0131n?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYeni\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n
\u201cKimseye verdin mi?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHay\u0131r.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cL\u00fctfen bu \u015fiiri bana ver. Bu \u015fiirle k\u0131za a\u00e7\u0131laca\u011f\u0131m,\u201d dedim.<\/p>\n
\u201cTamam,\u201d dedi. \u015eiiri defterinden y\u0131rt\u0131p bana verdi.<\/p>\n
Eve gidince \u015fiiri A4 ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131na temize \u00e7ektim, alt\u0131na da imzam\u0131 att\u0131m.<\/p>\n
K\u0131za b\u00fcy\u00fck bir gururla,<\/p>\n
\u201cSenin i\u00e7in yazd\u0131m,\u201d deyip \u015fiiri verdim\u2026 ve yan\u0131ndan ka\u00e7t\u0131m \ud83e\udee3<\/p>\n
\u015eiir o kadar etkileyiciydi ki\u2026 Buna kar\u015f\u0131 koyamazd\u0131!<\/p>\n
O y\u0131llarda televizyonda tek kanal vard\u0131: TRT. Ak\u015fam haberleriyle a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r, ard\u0131ndan m\u00fczik programlar\u0131 ba\u015flard\u0131. O ak\u015fam ailece \u00e7ay i\u00e7ip televizyon izlerken akl\u0131m k\u0131zdayd\u0131:<\/p>\n
Okudu mu? Ne hissetti? Beni sevecek mi?<\/p>\n
Tam bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerle bo\u011fu\u015furken ekrana bir sanat\u00e7\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131: Esin Engin.<\/p>\n
Giri\u015f m\u00fczi\u011fi bitti, solist s\u00f6zleri okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Donup kald\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Okunan \u015fiir\u2026<\/p>\n
Benim k\u0131za verdi\u011fim \u015fiirdi.<\/p>\n
\u201cPapatya gibisin beyaz ve ince<\/p>\n
Eziliyor ruhum seni g\u00f6r\u00fcnce<\/p>\n
\u0130smin dudaklar\u0131m\u0131 yak\u0131yor neden<\/p>\n
Nedir bu \u00e7ekti\u011fim senin elinden\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Tabii k\u0131z da herkes gibi o program\u0131 izliyordu\u2026<\/p>\n
Ertesi g\u00fcn, \u015fiiri yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131 bana geri verirken sadece \u015funu s\u00f6yledi:<\/p>\n
\u201cNe kadar \u00e7abuk \u00fcnl\u00fc olmu\u015f \u015fiirin\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Ve gitti.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015fte o g\u00fcn anlad\u0131m:<\/p>\n
Ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n \u015fiiriyle ilan-\u0131 a\u015fk edilmezmi\u015f.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Bu hik\u00e2yenin mimarlar\u0131ndan biri olan sevgili dostum Ali O.\u2019ya buradan selam olsun \ud83d\ude04<\/em>
\n\u0130zin verirse, bir g\u00fcn \u015fiiriyle birlikte tam ad\u0131n\u0131 da eklerim.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"