{"id":488,"date":"2026-10-23T23:10:57","date_gmt":"2026-10-23T13:10:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/?p=488"},"modified":"2026-10-24T00:43:41","modified_gmt":"2026-10-23T14:43:41","slug":"bir-tabak-et","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/2026\/10\/23\/bir-tabak-et\/","title":{"rendered":"Bir tabak et.."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>\u00d6\u011fle saatleriydi.<br \/>\nBir arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n lokantas\u0131nda yemek yiyordum. Masalar, d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcndeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bah\u00e7eye yerle\u015ftirilmi\u015fti. G\u00fcn\u00fcn tela\u015f\u0131 hen\u00fcz dinmemi\u015f, sokaktan ge\u00e7enlerin ayak sesleri, tabak \u00e7anak seslerine kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<br \/>\nOnu g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde y\u00fcz\u00fcmde istemsiz bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme belirdi.<br \/>\nMahallenin k\u00f6peklerinden biriydi. S\u0131k s\u0131k lokantan\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne gelir, arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n kendisine ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yemeklerden nasibini al\u0131rd\u0131. Birbirlerini tan\u0131rlard\u0131. Hatta aralar\u0131nda, kelimelere ihtiya\u00e7 duymayan bir yak\u0131nl\u0131k oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm.<br \/>\nBeni g\u00f6r\u00fcnce heyecanland\u0131.<br \/>\nKuyru\u011funu sallayarak bah\u00e7eye dald\u0131. Masalar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan bana do\u011fru geliyordu ki arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n sert sesi duyuldu:<br \/>\n\u201c\u00c7\u0131k d\u0131\u015far\u0131! Hadi, \u00e7abuk!\u201d<br \/>\nArd\u0131ndan k\u00f6pe\u011fin kaba etine bir \u015faplak indirdi.<br \/>\nHayvan oldu\u011fu yerde durdu.<br \/>\nAz \u00f6nceki heyecan\u0131ndan eser kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131. O bak\u0131\u015fta ne oldu\u011funu bilemem. \u015ea\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k m\u0131, korku mu, yoksa benim h\u00fcz\u00fcn olarak yorumlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ba\u015fka bir duygu mu&#8230;<br \/>\nSonra boynunu e\u011fdi.<br \/>\nArkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcp a\u011f\u0131r ad\u0131mlarla bah\u00e7eden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Soka\u011f\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ge\u00e7ti. Bir binan\u0131n duvar\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fen g\u00f6lgeye uzand\u0131.<br \/>\nNe havlad\u0131 ne de d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131.<br \/>\nSadece uzakla\u015ft\u0131.<br \/>\nArkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ifade de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015fti. Bir s\u00fcre k\u00f6pe\u011fin ard\u0131ndan bakt\u0131. Yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan rahats\u0131z oldu\u011fu belliydi.<br \/>\nMutfa\u011fa girdi.<br \/>\nBir taba\u011f\u0131 etle doldurup d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Soka\u011f\u0131 ge\u00e7erek k\u00f6pe\u011fin yan\u0131na \u00e7\u00f6meldi. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fad\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201cTamam o\u011flum, k\u0131zma. Ama senin de buraya girmemen laz\u0131m. Ka\u00e7 kere s\u00f6yledim sana?\u201d<br \/>\nTaba\u011f\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcne b\u0131rakt\u0131.<br \/>\n\u00d6yle s\u0131radan bir tabak da de\u011fildi. Sokakta ya\u015fayan bir k\u00f6pek i\u00e7in ziyafet say\u0131labilecek kadar et vard\u0131 i\u00e7inde.<br \/>\nK\u00f6pek ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rmad\u0131.<br \/>\nArkada\u015f\u0131m taba\u011f\u0131 biraz daha yakla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131.<br \/>\nHayvan bu kez b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6vdesini \u00f6teki tarafa \u00e7evirdi.<br \/>\nNe ete bakt\u0131 ne de kendisini ok\u015fayan adama.<br \/>\nArkada\u015f\u0131m bir s\u00fcre daha yan\u0131nda kald\u0131. Sonra kalk\u0131p lokantaya d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<br \/>\nBen b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 masamdan sessizce izlemi\u015ftim.<br \/>\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm h\u00e2l\u00e2 kar\u015f\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131mdayd\u0131.<br \/>\nBir k\u00f6pek, \u00f6n\u00fcne konulan bir tabak eti yemiyordu.<br \/>\nBelki korkmu\u015ftu. Belki i\u015ftah\u0131 ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Belki de o an yemek istemiyordu.<br \/>\nBunu bilemezdim.<br \/>\nAma g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm manzara, zihnimde bamba\u015fka bir kap\u0131y\u0131 aralam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<br \/>\n\u0130nsan\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<br \/>\n\u00d6mr\u00fc boyunca kendisini di\u011fer canl\u0131lardan ay\u0131ran \u00f6zellikleri anlat\u0131p duran insan\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nAkl\u0131n\u0131, iradesini, ki\u015fili\u011fini, de\u011ferlerini&#8230;<br \/>\nVe b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlara sahip oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemesine ra\u011fmen, bazen bir masadan kalkmay\u0131 bile ba\u015faramayan insan\u0131.<br \/>\nKa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131z, ki\u015fili\u011fimizin incitildi\u011fi bir yerde oturmaya devam etmi\u015ftik?<br \/>\nKa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131z, y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcze kar\u015f\u0131 s\u00f6ylenen a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lay\u0131c\u0131 bir s\u00f6z\u00fc duymam\u0131\u015f gibi yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k?<br \/>\n\u00dcstelik \u00e7o\u011fu zaman bizi orada tutan \u015fey, gitmemize engel olacak ger\u00e7ek bir zorunluluk da de\u011fildi.<br \/>\nBazen bir \u00e7\u0131kar, bazen bir beklenti, bazen de yaln\u0131zca o masadaki yerimizi kaybetme korkusuydu.<br \/>\n\u0130nsan, kendisine yap\u0131lan sayg\u0131s\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 unutmakta \u015fa\u015f\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 derecede becerikliydi.<br \/>\n\u00d6zellikle de kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki ki\u015finin kendisine sa\u011flayabilece\u011fi bir menfaat varsa&#8230;<br \/>\nBiraz \u00f6nce onurunu inciten insan\u0131n uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 imk\u00e2na g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyebiliyor, hakareti sineye \u00e7ekebiliyor, hatta kendi kendisini ikna edecek gerek\u00e7eler bulabiliyordu.<br \/>\n\u201cBo\u015f ver, b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fclecek mesele de\u011fil.\u201d<br \/>\n\u201cAdam\u0131n huyu b\u00f6yle.\u201d<br \/>\n\u201c\u015eimdi s\u0131ras\u0131 de\u011fil.\u201d<br \/>\n\u201c\u0130li\u015fkileri bozman\u0131n anlam\u0131 yok.\u201d<br \/>\nBazen b\u00fct\u00fcn bu c\u00fcmlelerin alt\u0131nda tek bir ger\u00e7ek yat\u0131yordu:<br \/>\n\u00d6n\u00fcndeki taba\u011f\u0131 kaybetmek istemiyordu.<br \/>\nOysa insan\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne konulan her tabakta et bulunmazd\u0131.<br \/>\nKimi zaman bir makam, kimi zaman para, kimi zaman bir i\u015f f\u0131rsat\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nKimi zaman da yaln\u0131zca birilerinin sofras\u0131nda oturabilme ayr\u0131cal\u0131\u011f\u0131.<br \/>\nVe insan, o sofradan kalkmamak i\u00e7in bazen kendisinden kalkard\u0131.<br \/>\nBir de ba\u015fka sofralar vard\u0131.<br \/>\nKimsenin kimseye a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a hakaret etmedi\u011fi, kimsenin kimseyi kovmad\u0131\u011f\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nAma insan\u0131n kendi de\u011ferlerini sessizce kap\u0131n\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda b\u0131rakarak girdi\u011fi sofralar.<br \/>\nOrada konu\u015fulanlardan rahats\u0131z olurdu.<br \/>\nBirinin arkas\u0131ndan s\u00f6ylenen s\u00f6zleri yanl\u0131\u015f bulur, ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmsenmesine i\u00e7erler, kendi inand\u0131\u011f\u0131 de\u011ferlerin alaya al\u0131nmas\u0131n\u0131 dinlerdi.<br \/>\n\u0130lk zamanlar y\u00fcz\u00fc k\u0131zar\u0131rd\u0131.<br \/>\n\u0130tiraz etmek isterdi.<br \/>\nAma sonra \u00e7evresine bakard\u0131.<br \/>\nHerkes g\u00fcl\u00fcyordu.<br \/>\nO da g\u00fcl\u00fcmserdi.<br \/>\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc itiraz ederse tuhaf kar\u015f\u0131lanabilirdi. Bir daha \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131lmayabilirdi. O \u00e7evrenin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda kalabilirdi.<br \/>\n\u201c\u015eimdi ay\u0131p olmas\u0131n.\u201d<br \/>\n\u201cBeni yanl\u0131\u015f anlamas\u0131nlar.\u201d<br \/>\n\u201cYad\u0131rganmayay\u0131m.\u201d<br \/>\n\u201cD\u0131\u015flanmayay\u0131m.\u201d<br \/>\n\u0130nsan\u0131n kendisine s\u00f6yledi\u011fi bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck c\u00fcmleler, zamanla b\u00fcy\u00fck bir teslimiyetin gerek\u00e7elerine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc.<br \/>\n\u00d6nce yaln\u0131zca susard\u0131.<br \/>\nSonra ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6ylediklerini onaylar gibi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallard\u0131.<br \/>\nBir s\u00fcre sonra, eskiden rahats\u0131z oldu\u011fu \u015fakalara kendisi de g\u00fclerdi.<br \/>\nVe g\u00fcn\u00fcn birinde, bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndan duysa itiraz edece\u011fi s\u00f6zleri kendi a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131karken bulurdu.<br \/>\nBelki de bulmazd\u0131.<br \/>\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc art\u0131k o s\u00f6zleri yad\u0131rgam\u0131yordu.<br \/>\n\u0130nsan\u0131n de\u011fi\u015fmesi i\u00e7in her zaman b\u00fcy\u00fck kararlar almas\u0131 gerekmiyordu.<br \/>\nBazen yaln\u0131zca yeterince uzun s\u00fcre yanl\u0131\u015f yerde oturmas\u0131 yetiyordu.<br \/>\nBa\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta benzememek i\u00e7in sustu\u011fu insanlara, sonunda susa susa benziyordu.<br \/>\n\u00dcstelik bu de\u011fi\u015fim \u00f6yle yava\u015f ger\u00e7ekle\u015fiyordu ki kendisine sorulsa h\u00e2l\u00e2 ayn\u0131 insan oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yleyebilirdi.<br \/>\nDe\u011ferleri de\u011fi\u015fmemi\u015fti ona g\u00f6re.<br \/>\nYaln\u0131zca biraz daha anlay\u0131\u015fl\u0131 olmu\u015ftu.<br \/>\nBiraz daha uyumlu.<br \/>\nBiraz daha hayat\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti.<br \/>\nOysa belki de \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fi tek \u015fey, kendi sesini k\u0131smakt\u0131.<br \/>\nElbette her suskunluk korkakl\u0131k de\u011fildi.<br \/>\nHayat, d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan bak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar kolay de\u011fildi.<br \/>\nKimi insan\u0131n bakmakla y\u00fck\u00fcml\u00fc oldu\u011fu \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 vard\u0131. Kiminin kaybetmeyi g\u00f6ze alamayaca\u011f\u0131 i\u015fi, kiminin \u00e7\u0131kamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ko\u015fullar\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nBazen susmak, insan\u0131n se\u00e7imi de\u011fil, mecburiyetiydi.<br \/>\nBunu da biliyordum.<br \/>\nAma bir de gitme imk\u00e2n\u0131 oldu\u011fu h\u00e2lde kalmay\u0131 se\u00e7enler vard\u0131.<br \/>\nKimsenin kendilerini zorlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131, yaln\u0131zca kabul g\u00f6rmek u\u011fruna kendi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerini ink\u00e2r edenler&#8230;<br \/>\nBir davete hay\u0131r diyemeyenler.<br \/>\nBir ortamdan ayr\u0131lmay\u0131 kabal\u0131k sayanlar.<br \/>\nKendilerine yap\u0131lan sayg\u0131s\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sineye \u00e7ekip kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda sunulan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ayr\u0131cal\u0131klarla avunanlar&#8230;<br \/>\nBa\u015fkalar\u0131na ay\u0131p olmas\u0131n diye kendilerine yapt\u0131klar\u0131 haks\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rmezden gelenler.<br \/>\n\u0130nsan\u0131n en tuhaf \u00e7eli\u015fkilerinden biri de buydu belki.<br \/>\nBa\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnde de\u011fer kaybetmekten korkarken, kendi g\u00f6z\u00fcndeki de\u011ferini yava\u015f yava\u015f t\u00fcketebiliyordu.<br \/>\nVe \u00e7o\u011fu zaman bunun fark\u0131na ancak yaln\u0131z kald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda var\u0131yordu.<br \/>\nO da kendisiyle ba\u015f ba\u015fa kalmaya cesaret edebilirse&#8230;<br \/>\nKar\u015f\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131ma yeniden bakt\u0131m.<br \/>\nK\u00f6pek h\u00e2l\u00e2 g\u00f6lgedeydi.<br \/>\nEt dolu tabak \u00f6n\u00fcnde duruyordu.<br \/>\nArkada\u015f\u0131m ise i\u015finin ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Lokantada hayat kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden devam ediyordu.<br \/>\nBir m\u00fc\u015fteri hesap istedi.<br \/>\nBir ba\u015fkas\u0131 \u00e7ay s\u00f6yledi.<br \/>\nSokaktan ara\u00e7lar ge\u00e7ti.<br \/>\nKimse i\u00e7in ola\u011fan\u00fcst\u00fc bir \u015fey ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<br \/>\nBelki ger\u00e7ekten de ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<br \/>\nBir k\u00f6pek bah\u00e7eye girmi\u015f, kovulmu\u015f, sonra kendisine yemek g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<br \/>\nHepsi buydu.<br \/>\nAma ben o g\u00fcn, kar\u015f\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131mda duran bir tabak ete uzun uzun bakt\u0131m.<br \/>\nK\u00f6pe\u011fin neden yemedi\u011fini bilmiyordum.<br \/>\nYaln\u0131zca yemedi\u011fini g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm.<br \/>\nYine de o g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc, bana insan\u0131n y\u0131llarca \u00fczerine konu\u015ftu\u011fu bir kavram\u0131 hat\u0131rlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131:<br \/>\n<strong>Duru\u015f.<\/strong><br \/>\n\u0130nsan\u0131n yaln\u0131zca ba\u015fkalar\u0131na g\u00f6sterdi\u011fi de\u011fil, kimse g\u00f6rmedi\u011finde de koruyabildi\u011fi duru\u015fu.<br \/>\nKendisine sunulan her \u015feyi kabul etmek zorunda olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmesi&#8230;<br \/>\nBir yere davet edilmenin, orada kalmay\u0131 gerektirmedi\u011fini anlamas\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nBir masada yer bulman\u0131n, o masadaki herkese benzemeyi zorunlu k\u0131lmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlamas\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nVe gerekti\u011finde, \u00f6n\u00fcne konulan taba\u011f\u0131 oldu\u011fu yerde b\u0131rakabilmesi.<br \/>\nBelki insan\u0131n \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, her istedi\u011fine sahip olabilmesinde de\u011fildi.<br \/>\n<strong>\u0130stemedi\u011fi bir \u015feyin kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kendisinden vazge\u00e7memesinde sakl\u0131yd\u0131.<\/strong><br \/>\nYeme\u011fimi bitirmi\u015ftim.<br \/>\nKalkmadan \u00f6nce son kez kar\u015f\u0131ya bakt\u0131m.<br \/>\nK\u00f6pek, y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u00f6teki tarafa \u00e7evirmi\u015f yat\u0131yordu.<br \/>\n\u00d6n\u00fcndeki etlere dokunmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<br \/>\nO g\u00fcn bir k\u00f6pe\u011fin ne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6\u011frenemedim.<br \/>\nAma kendime sormam gereken bir soru buldum.<br \/>\n<strong>Acaba ben, hangi sofralardan kalkmam gerekti\u011fini bildi\u011fim h\u00e2lde oturmaya devam ediyordum?<\/strong><br \/>\nVe daha da \u00f6nemlisi&#8230;<br \/>\n<strong>O sofralarda kalabilmek i\u00e7in, ne zamand\u0131r kendimden yiyordum?<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em>\u270d\ufe0fAli \u0130hsan Sivri hik\u00e2yeleri\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00d6\u011fle saatleriydi. Bir arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n lokantas\u0131nda yemek yiyordum. Masalar, d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcndeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bah\u00e7eye yerle\u015ftirilmi\u015fti. 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