Bah\u00e7enin s\u0131n\u0131r\u0131ndaki otlar, sonbaharla birlikte kurumaya y\u00fcz tuttu. Yaz boyunca birbirine kar\u0131\u015f\u0131p topra\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez h\u00e2le getiren o uzun otlar\u0131n aralar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131k\u00e7a, r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n aylard\u0131r sa\u011fdan soldan ta\u015f\u0131y\u0131p b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feyler de ortaya \u00e7\u0131kmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Birka\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr f\u0131rsat bulduk\u00e7a topluyorum onlar\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Bir po\u015fet par\u00e7as\u0131, k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir plastik, nereden geldi\u011fi belli olmayan ambalajlar\u2026<\/p>\n
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O g\u00fcn de elimde \u00e7\u00f6p torbas\u0131yla otlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda dola\u015f\u0131rken b\u00fcy\u00fck\u00e7e bir al\u00fcminyum enerji i\u00e7ece\u011fi kutusu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. E\u011filip ald\u0131m. Tam torbaya atacakt\u0131m ki i\u00e7inden bir \u015f\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131 geldi.<\/p>\n
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Durdum.<\/p>\n
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Bizim buralarda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck salyangoz \u00e7oktur. Her ya\u011fmurdan sonra ta\u015flar\u0131n, yapraklar\u0131n, duvar diplerinin aras\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131karlar. Kutunun i\u00e7ine de birka\u00e7 tanesi girmi\u015f olmal\u0131 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
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A\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7evirip hafif\u00e7e sallad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
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Bir tane d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n
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Sonra bir tane daha.<\/p>\n
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Ard\u0131ndan bir ba\u015fkas\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
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Onlarca k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck salyangoz d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc avucumun \u00f6n\u00fcndeki topra\u011fa.<\/p>\n
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Kutuyu tekrar sallad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
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Fakat ses kesilmedi.<\/p>\n
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Bu kez \u015f\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131 de\u011fil, daha tok bir t\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131 geliyordu i\u00e7eriden.<\/p>\n
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Kutuyu g\u00f6z hizama kald\u0131r\u0131p a\u011fz\u0131ndan i\u00e7eri bakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
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Bir salyangoz daha vard\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Ama bu, di\u011ferleri gibi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck de\u011fildi. Olduk\u00e7a b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Hatta kutunun a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kamayacak kadar b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fc.<\/p>\n
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Bir s\u00fcre elimdeki kutuya bakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
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\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ortada tuhaf bir \u015fey vard\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Bu salyangoz, \u015fimdiki h\u00e2liyle o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck a\u011f\u0131zdan i\u00e7eri girmi\u015f olamazd\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Demek ki \u00e7ok daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken girmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
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Belki kavurucu yaz g\u00fcnlerinden biriydi. Toprak s\u0131cakt\u0131, g\u00fcne\u015f yak\u0131yordu ve o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bedeniyle kendine serin, karanl\u0131k, g\u00fcvenli bir yer ar\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
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Sonra bu kutuyu buldu.<\/p>\n
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\u0130\u00e7eri girdi.<\/p>\n
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Muhtemelen o g\u00fcn onun i\u00e7in do\u011fru yerdi.<\/p>\n
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G\u00fcne\u015ften korudu.<\/p>\n
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Belki ku\u015flardan korudu.<\/p>\n
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Belki kurumaktan kurtard\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Ve salyangoz orada ya\u015famaya devam etti.<\/p>\n
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Ama hayat da devam etti.<\/p>\n
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O b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
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Bir zamanlar rahat\u00e7a ge\u00e7ti\u011fi kap\u0131, g\u00fcn geldi bedeninden k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck kald\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Onu koruyan yer art\u0131k onu b\u0131rakm\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
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Kutuyu \u00e7\u00f6p torbas\u0131na atamad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
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Depoya gittim, kesici bir alet ald\u0131m. Salyangoza zarar vermemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak al\u00fcminyumu yava\u015f yava\u015f kestim. Kutuyu a\u00e7\u0131nca onu \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p topra\u011fa b\u0131rakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
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Sonra yerdeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck salyangozlara bakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
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Belki de yavrular\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Bilmiyorum.<\/p>\n
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Ama bildi\u011fim ba\u015fka bir \u015fey vard\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Elimde kesilmi\u015f o kutuyla bir s\u00fcre \u00f6ylece kald\u0131m.<\/p>\n
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\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc benim zihnim b\u00f6yle anlarda rahat durmaz.<\/p>\n
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Bir salyangoz g\u00f6r\u00fcr, insan\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr…<\/p>\n
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Biz de bazen b\u00f6yle yapm\u0131yor muyuz?<\/p>\n
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Hayat\u0131n \u00e7ok s\u0131cak bir zaman\u0131nda, can\u0131m\u0131z yanarken, korkarken ya da sadece bir an \u00f6nce bulundu\u011fumuz yerden kurtulmak isterken \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcze \u00e7\u0131kan ilk g\u00fcvenli sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yere s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131yoruz.<\/p>\n
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Bir insana\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bir ili\u015fkiye\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bir i\u015fe\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bir al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131\u011fa\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bazen de kendimize kurdu\u011fumuz k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bir d\u00fcnyaya.<\/p>\n
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Ve belki o g\u00fcn, bize g\u00f6re do\u011fru olan\u0131 yap\u0131yoruz.<\/p>\n
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O s\u0131\u011f\u0131nak bizi bir \u015feyden koruyor.<\/p>\n
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Toparl\u0131yor bir m\u00fcddet.<\/p>\n
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Ayakta tutuyor.<\/p>\n
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Sonra zaman ge\u00e7iyor.<\/p>\n
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Biz de\u011fi\u015fiyoruz.<\/p>\n
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B\u00fcy\u00fcyoruz.<\/p>\n
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Ama s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yer bizimle birlikte b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcyor.<\/p>\n
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Bir g\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131kmak istedi\u011fimizde fark ediyoruz:<\/p>\n
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Bir zamanlar kendi iste\u011fimizle girdi\u011fimiz kap\u0131dan art\u0131k ge\u00e7emiyoruz.<\/p>\n
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\u0130\u015fte o zaman insan\u0131n akl\u0131na \u015fu soru geliyor:<\/p>\n
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Bir se\u00e7im ne zaman yanl\u0131\u015f olur?<\/p>\n
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\u0130\u00e7ine girdi\u011fimiz g\u00fcn m\u00fc?<\/p>\n
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Yoksa art\u0131k bize yetmedi\u011fini bildi\u011fimiz h\u00e2lde i\u00e7inde kalmaya devam etti\u011fimiz g\u00fcn m\u00fc?.<\/p>\n
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Belki hayatta baz\u0131 kararlar\u0131, verildi\u011fi g\u00fcne bakarak yarg\u0131lamamak gerekir.<\/p>\n
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\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc d\u00fcn seni koruyan \u015feyin bug\u00fcn seni hapsetmesi, d\u00fcn yanl\u0131\u015f se\u00e7im yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n anlam\u0131na gelmez her zaman.<\/p>\n
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Sadece b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn anlam\u0131na gelebilir.<\/p>\n
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Ve insan bazen hayat\u0131nda d\u00f6n\u00fcp \u015funa bakmal\u0131:<\/p>\n
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Ben h\u00e2l\u00e2 bir s\u0131\u011f\u0131nakta m\u0131y\u0131m, yoksa \u00e7oktan hapishaneye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f bir yerde mi?<\/p>\n
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O salyangozun kutuyu kendi ba\u015f\u0131na kesme \u015fans\u0131 yoktu.<\/p>\n
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Fakat bizim var.<\/p>\n
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Belki de aram\u0131zdaki en b\u00fcy\u00fck fark bu.<\/p>\n
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\u270d\ufe0fAli \u0130hsan Sivri hik\u00e2yeleri\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Bah\u00e7enin s\u0131n\u0131r\u0131ndaki otlar, sonbaharla birlikte kurumaya y\u00fcz tuttu. Yaz boyunca birbirine kar\u0131\u015f\u0131p topra\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez h\u00e2le getiren o uzun otlar\u0131n aralar\u0131 > Devam\u0131n\u0131 Oku<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[434,423,177,281,433],"class_list":["post-459","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-bu-yoldan-gectim","tag-ali-ihsan-sivri-hikayeleri-farkina-varmak","tag-buyumek","tag-degisim","tag-hayatin-icinden","tag-sigindigin-yer"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/459","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=459"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/459\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":464,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/459\/revisions\/464"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=459"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=459"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=459"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}