Bug\u00fcn yolda bir araba g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
Y\u0131llar \u00f6nce ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir araban\u0131n ayn\u0131 modeli\u2026<\/p>\n
Ayn\u0131 rengi\u2026<\/p>\n
Bir an durup bakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u0130nsan haf\u0131zas\u0131 tuhaf.<\/p>\n
Y\u0131llard\u0131r akl\u0131n\u0131za gelmeyen bir an\u0131, bazen bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcyle oldu\u011fu yerden kalk\u0131p yan\u0131n\u0131za oturuveriyor.<\/p>\n
Ben de o arabay\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce y\u0131llar \u00f6ncesine gittim.<\/p>\n
Ve nas\u0131l olduysa\u2026<\/p>\n
\u0130lk hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015fey araba de\u011fil, ya\u011fmur oldu.<\/p>\n
Sonra ayaklar\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131ndaki o su\u2026<\/p>\n
Sonra da babam.<\/p>\n
Bir araban\u0131n beni babama kadar g\u00f6t\u00fcrece\u011fi akl\u0131ma gelmezdi.<\/p>\n
Haydi anlatay\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
O s\u0131ralar maddi durumum pek parlak de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n
Bir arabaya ihtiyac\u0131m vard\u0131 ama ay\u0131rabilece\u011fim para da belliydi.<\/p>\n
Kendi kendime dedim ki:<\/p>\n
\u201cAli \u0130hsan\u2026 Be\u015f alt\u0131 ay idare etsin yeter.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0130nsan b\u00f6yle c\u00fcmleler kurarken dikkat etmeli.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc hayat bazen \u201cTamam.\u201d diyor.<\/p>\n
Ama neyle idare edece\u011finizi s\u00f6ylemiyor.<\/p>\n
\u0130lan sitesinde tam b\u00fct\u00e7eme g\u00f6re bir araba buldum.<\/p>\n
Arad\u0131m. Bulu\u015ftuk.<\/p>\n
\u0130ki gen\u00e7 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Yeni mezun \u00f6\u011fretmenlermi\u015f.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015fte benim i\u00e7in hik\u00e2yenin koptu\u011fu yer de tam buras\u0131yd\u0131 asl\u0131nda.<\/p>\n
Ama bunu y\u0131llar sonra anlayacakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00d6\u011fretmen.\u201d<\/p>\n
Bu kelimenin benim hayat\u0131mda s\u0131radan bir meslek ad\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 o g\u00fcn d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmedim.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc benim ilk \u00f6\u011fretmenim babamd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Sadece okul anlam\u0131nda de\u011fil\u2026<\/p>\n
Hayat\u0131 \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fim ilk insanlardan biri.<\/p>\n
Rol modelim.<\/p>\n
Do\u011fruyu, yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131, d\u00fcr\u00fcstl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, insanlara nas\u0131l davran\u0131lmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini kendisinden \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fim adam.<\/p>\n
Babac\u0131\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Ben b\u00fcy\u00fcrken \u00f6\u011fretmenlik mesle\u011fiyle babam\u0131n ki\u015fili\u011fi zihnimde \u00f6ylesine i\u00e7 i\u00e7e ge\u00e7mi\u015fti ki\u2026<\/p>\n
Galiba y\u0131llarca b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6\u011fretmenleri biraz babam sand\u0131m.<\/p>\n
O iki gen\u00e7 de \u00f6\u011fretmendi.<\/p>\n
Ben de \u00f6\u011fretmen \u00e7ocu\u011fuydum.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u00e7imde hemen tarif edemedi\u011fim bir g\u00fcven olu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n
Arac\u0131 do\u011fru d\u00fcr\u00fcst incelemek akl\u0131ma bile gelmedi.<\/p>\n
Kaputu a\u00e7mad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Alt\u0131na e\u011filmedim.<\/p>\n
Ekspertiz yapt\u0131rmad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Eksper?<\/p>\n
O da kim?<\/p>\n
Ben do\u011frudan notere gittim.<\/p>\n
Arabay\u0131 ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Kafamda fark\u0131nda olmadan \u015f\u00f6yle bir denklem kurmu\u015ftum:<\/p>\n
\u00d6\u011fretmenler g\u00fcvenilir insanlard\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Bu gen\u00e7ler \u00f6\u011fretmen.<\/p>\n
O h\u00e2lde\u2026<\/p>\n
Gerisini zihnim zaten tamamlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Araban\u0131n tamamlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerleri de birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra ya\u011fmur tamamlayacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bir ak\u015fam \u00fczeri arkada\u015f\u0131ma yeme\u011fe gidecektim.<\/p>\n
Eve u\u011frad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Tam \u00fczerimi de\u011fi\u015ftirirken ya\u011fmur ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u00d6yle hafif hafif de de\u011fil\u2026<\/p>\n
G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc sanki b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn beni beklemi\u015f de ben d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nca,<\/p>\n
\u201cBa\u015flay\u0131n!\u201d<\/p>\n
diye talimat vermi\u015f gibi ya\u011f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
\u015eemsiyeyi ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Yine de arabaya ula\u015fana kadar s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam oldum.<\/p>\n
Ko\u015fa ko\u015fa bindim.<\/p>\n
Kap\u0131y\u0131 kapatt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Derin bir nefes ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
dedim.<\/p>\n
\u201cYa\u011fmurdan kurtuldum.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0130nsan bazen yan\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlamadan hemen \u00f6nce ne kadar huzurlu oluyor.<\/p>\n
Ayaklar\u0131m\u0131 paspasa koydum.<\/p>\n
\u015eLAP!<\/p>\n
Aya\u011f\u0131m neredeyse bile\u011fime kadar suya g\u00f6m\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Bir an \u00f6ylece kald\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u0130lk d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm \u015fey \u015fuydu:<\/p>\n
\u201cHerh\u00e2lde \u00e7ok \u0131sland\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n
Aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Su h\u00e2l\u00e2 oradayd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bir daha bast\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u015eLAP!<\/p>\n
Yok.<\/p>\n
Bu kez sorun bende de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n
Arabadayd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ya\u011fmurdan ka\u00e7\u0131p arabaya s\u0131\u011f\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Me\u011fer ya\u011fmur benden \u00f6nce gelmi\u015f.<\/p>\n
Hatta yerle\u015fmi\u015f.<\/p>\n
Bir an d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm:<\/p>\n
\u201cYoksa bu modelde ayak banyosu standart m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n
Ertesi g\u00fcn ustaya gittim.<\/p>\n
Adam kaputu a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u00d6n cama bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Biraz inceledi.<\/p>\n
Sonra kafas\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnla\u015f\u0131ld\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n
dedi.<\/p>\n
Ben motor inecek, araba da\u011f\u0131lacak, banka kredisi \u00e7ekece\u011fim falan diye bekliyorum.<\/p>\n
Adam gayet sakin devam etti:<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00d6n cam de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015f.\u201d<\/p>\n
Sonra cama biraz daha bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u201cAma bunu takan ki\u015fi\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Durdu.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u2026ya arabay\u0131 sevmemi\u015f ya da silikonla aras\u0131 pek iyi de\u011filmi\u015f.\u201d<\/p>\n
Me\u011fer \u00f6n cam kazadan sonra \u00f6yle bir tak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ki\u2026<\/p>\n
Ya\u011fmur damlalar\u0131 kap\u0131da beklemiyor.<\/p>\n
Do\u011frudan i\u00e7eri giriyormu\u015f.<\/p>\n
Yetmemi\u015f\u2026<\/p>\n
Silecek motorunun bulundu\u011fu b\u00f6l\u00fcmdeki tahliye sistemi de g\u00f6revini yapm\u0131yormu\u015f.<\/p>\n
D\u0131\u015far\u0131da ne kadar ya\u011fmur varsa\u2026<\/p>\n
Hi\u00e7birini geri \u00e7evirmeden i\u00e7eri kabul ediyormu\u015f.<\/p>\n
Ya\u011fmur\u2026<\/p>\n
Dolu\u2026<\/p>\n
Sel\u2026<\/p>\n
Hepsine:<\/p>\n
\u201cHo\u015f geldiniz.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ben araba ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 san\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Me\u011fer k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir g\u00f6let sat\u0131n alm\u0131\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Usta paspaslar\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131nca alt\u0131ndaki suyu g\u00f6r\u00fcnce ben bile \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Bir s\u00fcre daha fark etmesem\u2026<\/p>\n
Arka koltu\u011fa iki sazan b\u0131rak\u0131p bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011fa ba\u015flayabilirdim.<\/p>\n
Arabay\u0131 tamir ettirdim.<\/p>\n
Sorun \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Ama uzun s\u00fcre ya\u011fmur ya\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda arabaya biner binmez ilk bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m yer \u00f6n cam de\u011fil\u2026<\/p>\n
Ayaklar\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131 oldu.<\/p>\n
\u0130nsan baz\u0131 al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 kolay b\u0131rakam\u0131yor.<\/p>\n
Ama o arabadan bana kalan yaln\u0131zca bu olmad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Y\u0131llar sonra o g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde kendime ba\u015fka bir soru sordum:<\/p>\n
Ben o iki gence neden bu kadar kolay g\u00fcvenmi\u015ftim?<\/p>\n
Onlar\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131yordum ki.<\/p>\n
Nas\u0131l insanlar olduklar\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyordum.<\/p>\n
Arabay\u0131 bilerek mi o h\u00e2lde satt\u0131lar, onlar da m\u0131 bilmiyordu\u2026<\/p>\n
Onu da bilmiyorum.<\/p>\n
Belki hi\u00e7bir k\u00f6t\u00fc niyetleri yoktu.<\/p>\n
Belki vard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn h\u00e2l\u00e2 bilmiyorum.<\/p>\n
Ama bildi\u011fim bir \u015fey var.<\/p>\n
Ben asl\u0131nda onlara g\u00fcvenmemi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n
Ben, onlar\u0131n bende \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 insana g\u00fcvenmi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n
Babama.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00d6\u011fretmen\u201d kelimesini duydu\u011fum anda, y\u0131llard\u0131r i\u00e7imde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir g\u00fcven duygusunu hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m iki insan\u0131n \u00fczerine koymu\u015ftum.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc benim tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m ilk \u00f6\u011fretmen \u00f6yleydi.<\/p>\n
Babamd\u0131.<\/p>\n
G\u00fcvendi\u011fim insand\u0131.<\/p>\n
Rol modelimdi.<\/p>\n
Ve galiba ben uzun y\u0131llar boyunca fark\u0131nda olmadan b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6\u011fretmenleri biraz babam sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Oysa insan b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e \u00f6\u011freniyor\u2026<\/p>\n
Bir insan\u0131n mesle\u011fi, unvan\u0131, ailesi, konu\u015fmas\u0131 ya da bize bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlatmas\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Onu tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z anlam\u0131na gelmiyor.<\/p>\n
Bazen kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdaki insana, onda ger\u00e7ekten bulunan \u00f6zellikler i\u00e7in de\u011fil\u2026<\/p>\n
Bizim ge\u00e7mi\u015fimizde g\u00fczel bir kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in g\u00fcveniyoruz.<\/p>\n
Sonra da zihnimizde eksik kalan yerleri kendimiz tamaml\u0131yoruz.<\/p>\n
Belki de g\u00fcven konusunda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z en b\u00fcy\u00fck hatalardan biri bu.<\/p>\n
\u0130nsanlara yaln\u0131zca olduklar\u0131 ki\u015fiyi de\u011fil\u2026<\/p>\n
Bazen \u00f6zledi\u011fimiz birini,<\/p>\n
sevdi\u011fimiz birini,<\/p>\n
g\u00fcvendi\u011fimiz birini de giydiriyoruz.<\/p>\n
Sonra kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdakinin, ona bizim bi\u00e7ti\u011fimiz o elbiseye uymas\u0131n\u0131 bekliyoruz.<\/p>\n
O g\u00fcn bana kalan ders, insanlara g\u00fcvenmemek de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n
H\u00e2l\u00e2 g\u00fcvenirim.<\/p>\n
H\u00e2l\u00e2 iyi insanlar\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131r\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Belki h\u00e2l\u00e2 bazen gere\u011finden fazla bile g\u00fcvenirim.<\/p>\n
Bundan da vazge\u00e7mek istemiyorum.<\/p>\n
Ama art\u0131k biliyorum ki\u2026<\/p>\n
G\u00fcvenmek ba\u015fka \u015fey.<\/p>\n
Kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdaki insan\u0131, ge\u00e7mi\u015fimizden sevdi\u011fimiz birinin yerine koymak ba\u015fka.<\/p>\n
Biri kalbin g\u00fczel bir taraf\u0131.<\/p>\n
Di\u011feri ise bazen insan\u0131n kendi kendine kurdu\u011fu bir yan\u0131lg\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ben o g\u00fcn bir araba sat\u0131n ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Araban\u0131n su ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra \u00f6\u011frendim.<\/p>\n
Ama y\u0131llar sonra fark ettim ki\u2026<\/p>\n
As\u0131l mesele araban\u0131n nereden su ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n
Benim g\u00fcvenimin nereden geldi\u011fiydi.<\/p>\n
Cevab\u0131 da \u00e7ok uzakta de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n
\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumdayd\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u0130lk \u00f6\u011fretmenimdeydi.<\/p>\n
Babamdayd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ben o iki gen\u00e7 \u00f6\u011fretmeni tan\u0131m\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Ama \u201c\u00f6\u011fretmen\u201d kelimesini tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 san\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc benim d\u00fcnyamda \u00f6\u011fretmen demek, biraz babam demekti.<\/p>\n
Belki de o g\u00fcn yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m hata g\u00fcvenmek de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n
Hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m insanlara, \u00e7ok iyi tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m ve \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fim bir insan\u0131n \u00f6zelliklerini y\u00fcklemekti.<\/p>\n
Aradan y\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn h\u00e2l\u00e2 insanlara g\u00fcveniyorum.<\/p>\n
Ama o araba bana bir \u015feyi \u00f6\u011fretti:<\/p>\n
Bir insana g\u00fcvenmek i\u00e7in, onun bize kimi hat\u0131rlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131na de\u011fil\u2026<\/p>\n
Onun ger\u00e7ekte kim oldu\u011funa bakmak gerekiyor.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
\u270d\ufe0fAli \u0130hsan Sivri hik\u00e2yeleri<\/em><\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Bug\u00fcn yolda bir araba g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Y\u0131llar \u00f6nce ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir araban\u0131n ayn\u0131 modeli\u2026 Ayn\u0131 rengi\u2026 Bir an durup bakt\u0131m. \u0130nsan haf\u0131zas\u0131 > Devam\u0131n\u0131 Oku<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[270,339,324,52,377],"class_list":["post-393","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-bu-yoldan-gectim","tag-ali-ihsan-sivri-hikayeleri","tag-guven","tag-guvenmek","tag-hayat-dersleri","tag-insanlara-guvenmek"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/393","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=393"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/393\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":394,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/393\/revisions\/394"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=393"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=393"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=393"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}