{"id":178,"date":"2026-04-17T16:31:21","date_gmt":"2026-04-17T13:31:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/?p=178"},"modified":"2026-04-17T16:39:43","modified_gmt":"2026-04-17T13:39:43","slug":"gemileri-gercekten-yaktigim-gun","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/2026\/04\/17\/gemileri-gercekten-yaktigim-gun\/","title":{"rendered":"Gemileri ger\u00e7ekten yakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn"},"content":{"rendered":"

Bazen insan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na bir ka\u011f\u0131t \u00e7\u0131kar\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

ve b\u00fct\u00fcn inanc\u0131n\u0131 sorgulat\u0131r.<\/em><\/p>\n

Yeni i\u015fimde heyecanla, mutlulukla \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131k hayat\u0131m\u0131n i\u015fi olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn\u2026<\/p>\n

bakkallar odas\u0131ndan bir zarf geldi.<\/p>\n

Yeni bir uygulama ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bakkal a\u00e7abilmek i\u00e7in art\u0131k \u00e7\u0131rakl\u0131k e\u011fitim merkezinde 7 ay kursa gitmek<\/p>\n

ve mesleki yeterlilik belgesi almak gerekiyordu.<\/p>\n

Ama halihaz\u0131rda esnaf olanlara bir hak tan\u0131m\u0131\u015flard\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130stersem\u2026<\/p>\n

hi\u00e7 kursa gitmeden, s\u0131nava girmeden<\/p>\n

bu belgeyi alabilecektim.<\/p>\n

Bana bunu tebli\u011f ediyorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Belirli bir tarihe kadar gidip almam gerekiyordu.<\/p>\n

\u0130lk geldi\u011finde\u2026<\/p>\n

\u00e7ok da umursamad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131 ald\u0131m,<\/p>\n

masam\u0131n \u00fczerindeki s\u00fcmenin alt\u0131na koydum.<\/p>\n

Ve unuttum.<\/p>\n

Haftalar ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn telefon \u00e7ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bakkallar odas\u0131ndan sekreter Nuray Han\u0131m\u2019d\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cAli Bey,\u201d dedi,<\/p>\n

\u201csize tebli\u011f etmi\u015ftik ama yine de hat\u0131rlatmak istedim.<\/p>\n

Yar\u0131n son g\u00fcn. Gelin belgenizi al\u0131n\u2026 dursun kenarda.<\/p>\n

Bir daha bakkal a\u00e7mam demeyin\u2026 laz\u0131m olur.\u201d<\/p>\n

Duraksad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Telefon kapand\u0131ktan sonra<\/p>\n

s\u00fcmenin alt\u0131ndaki ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ve\u2026 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

15 Ekim 2002\u2019de kat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m o toplant\u0131da<\/p>\n

bu i\u015fin hayat\u0131m\u0131n geri kalan\u0131ndaki tek i\u015f olaca\u011f\u0131na karar vermi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n

Herkese \u015funu s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordum:<\/p>\n

\u201cBu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck f\u0131rsat\u0131 !.<\/p>\n

B\u00f6yle bir i\u015f varken ba\u015fka bir \u015fey d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek bile ak\u0131ll\u0131ca de\u011fil.\u201d<\/p>\n

Peki o zaman\u2026<\/p>\n

\ud83d\udc49 neden duraksam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m?<\/p>\n

Neden o ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131 gelir gelmez \u00e7\u00f6pe atmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m?<\/p>\n

Neden s\u00fcmenin alt\u0131na saklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m?<\/p>\n

Bilin\u00e7 alt\u0131mda bir korku mu vard\u0131?<\/p>\n

Yoksa g\u00fcvensizlik mi?<\/p>\n

Kendi kendimle \u00e7eli\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Aylard\u0131r insanlara inan\u00e7la anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015fey\u2026<\/p>\n

ger\u00e7ekten benim inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015fey miydi?<\/p>\n

Yoksa sadece s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor muydum?<\/p>\n

G\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcm daralmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

O g\u00fcn ofiste yaln\u0131zd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Kap\u0131 zilinin pillerini s\u00f6kt\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Cep telefonumu kapatt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ofis telefonunun fi\u015fini \u00e7ektim.<\/p>\n

Kimse gelmesin istiyordum.<\/p>\n

Ofisin i\u00e7inde dolan\u0131p duruyordum.<\/p>\n

Kafam\u0131n i\u00e7i susmuyordu.<\/p>\n

\u201cBen kimim?\u201d diyordum.<\/p>\n

\u201cS\u00f6yledi\u011fiyle yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir olmayan biri mi?\u201d<\/p>\n

E\u011fer o belgeyi gidip alsayd\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n

kimse bilmeyecekti.<\/p>\n

Ama ben bilecektim.<\/p>\n

Ve \u201cgemileri yakt\u0131m\u201d dedi\u011fim \u015fey\u2026<\/p>\n

ustaca s\u00f6ylenmi\u015f bir yalana d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fecekti.<\/p>\n

Mini marketimi yok pahas\u0131na devretmi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n

Arkam\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ama\u2026<\/p>\n

o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck ka\u011f\u0131t par\u00e7as\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

b\u00fct\u00fcn bu hik\u00e2yeyi sorgulat\u0131yordu bana.<\/p>\n

Kendimden \u015f\u00fcphe etmek\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130nsan\u0131n ruhunu s\u0131kan en a\u011f\u0131r duygulardan biriymi\u015f.<\/p>\n

Ak\u015fam oldu.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015f han\u0131 bo\u015fald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Herkes gitti.<\/p>\n

Ben gitmedim.<\/p>\n

kattaki ofiste kald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u0130ki \u015fi\u015fe \u015farap ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Sarho\u015f olmak istiyordum.<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnemeyecek kadar sarho\u015f\u2026<\/p>\n

Ama olmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7tim\u2026<\/p>\n

yine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Sabaha kadar o karanl\u0131k ofiste<\/p>\n

ay \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda dola\u015f\u0131p durdum.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcn a\u011fard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Pencereden insanlar\u0131 izledim.<\/p>\n

O insanlara ben umut olacakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Yol g\u00f6sterecektim.<\/p>\n

Peki benim i\u00e7imde bu \u00e7atlak varken\u2026<\/p>\n

ben nas\u0131l onlar\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131m?<\/p>\n

Saat sabah 9\u2019a geliyordu.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

Midem bulan\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

Lavaboya gittim.<\/p>\n

Y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 y\u0131kad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Sonra kendime bir shake yapt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

B\u00fcy\u00fck bir bardak bitkisel \u00e7ay koydum.<\/p>\n

Takviyelerimi ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ve oturdum.<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

\u201cGemileri yakmak\u201d ne demekti?<\/p>\n

Yar\u0131m saat\u2026<\/p>\n

Sadece bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Sonra \u015funu fark ettim:<\/p>\n

\ud83d\udc49 \u0130htimalle olmazd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ya bu yol y\u00fcr\u00fcnecekti\u2026<\/p>\n

ya da hi\u00e7 ba\u015flanmayacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cOlursa devam ederim, olmazsa b\u0131rak\u0131r\u0131m\u201d diye bir \u015fey yoktu benim kitab\u0131mda.<\/p>\n

Bu yolun ortas\u0131 yoktu.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u00fcnlerin kan\u0131ma i\u015flemesini bekledim.<\/p>\n

Sonra\u2026<\/p>\n

masan\u0131n \u00fczerindeki o ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131 ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Par\u00e7alad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ve \u00e7\u00f6pe att\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Kap\u0131n\u0131n zilinin pillerini geri takt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Telefonlar\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ve aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Haz\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u00dcyelerimi aramaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Enerjik, inan\u00e7 dolu, kararl\u0131 bir lider olarak.<\/p>\n

Ve o g\u00fcn \u015funu hissettim:<\/p>\n

\ud83d\udc49 Asl\u0131nda ben\u2026<\/p>\n

o g\u00fcn ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

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Bazen insan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na bir ka\u011f\u0131t \u00e7\u0131kar\u2026 ve b\u00fct\u00fcn inanc\u0131n\u0131 sorgulat\u0131r. Yeni i\u015fimde heyecanla, mutlulukla \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum. Art\u0131k hayat\u0131m\u0131n i\u015fi olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum. > Devam\u0131n\u0131 Oku<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[136,179,184,180,181,183,182,185],"class_list":["post-178","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-bu-yoldan-gectim","tag-ali-ihsan-sivri","tag-girisimcililkte-risk-almak","tag-hayat-dersi-veren-hikayeler","tag-hayatin-kirilma-anlari","tag-inancla-baslamak","tag-kendine-inanmak","tag-kisisel-gelisim","tag-korkularla-yuzlesmek"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/178","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=178"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/178\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":180,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/178\/revisions\/180"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=178"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=178"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/buyoldangectim.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=178"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}