Yeniden y\u00fckseliyordum.<\/p>\n
Ama bu sefer\u2026 i\u00e7im rahat de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n
\u0130lk tam sayfadan sonra i\u015fler h\u0131zla b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Bu sekt\u00f6rde de k\u0131sa s\u00fcrede bilinir olduk.<\/p>\n
\u0130yi para kazan\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Ama \u00f6zg\u00fcr de\u011fildim.<\/p>\n
Dosyalar h\u00e2l\u00e2 a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Hakk\u0131mda aramalar vard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bir y\u0131l ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n
Her ay yakla\u015f\u0131k 2.000 dolar \u00f6dedim.<\/p>\n
Sonra avukat\u0131 arad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u201cNe kadar kald\u0131?\u201d dedim.<\/p>\n
212.000 TL bor\u00e7\u2026<\/p>\n
190.000\u2019e d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Bir y\u0131l boyunca \u00f6dedi\u011fim onca para\u2026<\/p>\n
faize gitmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
O an anlad\u0131m:<\/p>\n
\ud83d\udc49 Ben bor\u00e7 \u00f6demiyordum\u2026 sadece zaman sat\u0131n al\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Art\u0131k bu i\u015fin i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131kamayaca\u011f\u0131m belliydi.<\/p>\n
Adapazar\u0131\u2019na bile gidemiyordum.<\/p>\n
\u00c7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in\u2026<\/p>\n
ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n arabas\u0131na binmek zorundayd\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Sonra\u2026<\/p>\n
babam arad\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u201cBiz hallederiz,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n
Anneannemin k\u00f6y\u00fcndeki ba\u011f\u2026 bah\u00e7e\u2026<\/p>\n
sat\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ben sustum.<\/p>\n
Sevinemedim.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onlar i\u00e7in bu\u2026<\/p>\n
\ud83d\udc49 mal satmak de\u011fil\u2026<\/p>\n
\ud83d\udc49 \u00f6m\u00fcr satmakt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ben \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n
U\u011fra\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u00d6demi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n
Ama yine de\u2026<\/p>\n
aileme y\u00fck olmu\u015ftum.<\/p>\n
Bor\u00e7lar kapand\u0131.<\/p>\n
Art\u0131k \u00f6zg\u00fcrd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
Ama i\u00e7imde bir \u015fey k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Kendime sordum:<\/p>\n
\u201cBen nerede hata yapt\u0131m?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u00c7ok mu h\u0131rs yapt\u0131m?<\/p>\n
Hay\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Zengin olmak istemi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n
Ama\u2026<\/p>\n
\ud83d\udc49 kimseyi ezmek i\u00e7in de\u011fil<\/p>\n
\ud83d\udc49 sadece \u00f6zg\u00fcr olmak i\u00e7in<\/p>\n
Ama yine de\u2026<\/p>\n
bir \u015feyler yanl\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u0130stanbul\u2019da hayat devam ediyordu.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015fler b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
\u00c7evre b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Ve\u2026<\/p>\n
masalar b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Her \u00f6\u011flen, her ak\u015fam\u2026<\/p>\n
l\u00fcks restoranlar.<\/p>\n
Bir ak\u015fam\u2026<\/p>\n
Bebek\u2019te bir Meksika restoran\u0131.<\/p>\n
Hesap geldi:<\/p>\n
\ud83d\udc49 1600 dolar.<\/p>\n
O an i\u00e7imde bir \u015fey netle\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Ben o masaya ait de\u011fildim.<\/p>\n
O hayat bana ait de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n
Yemekten sonra abime d\u00f6nd\u00fcm:<\/p>\n
\u201cBen d\u00f6n\u00fcyorum,\u201d dedim.<\/p>\n
Anlad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Hi\u00e7 sorgulamad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ertesi g\u00fcn ayr\u0131ld\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Gitmeden \u00f6nce\u2026<\/p>\n
bir araba verdi.<\/p>\n
\u201cEme\u011fine,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n
\u0130stanbul\u2019a\u2026<\/p>\n
11 tutuklama karar\u0131yla gelmi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n
\u015eimdi\u2026<\/p>\n
bor\u00e7suz d\u00f6n\u00fcyordum.<\/p>\n
Ama\u2026<\/p>\n
ayn\u0131 adam de\u011fildim.<\/p>\n
Yolda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm:<\/p>\n
Para\u2026<\/p>\n
neydi?<\/p>\n
Bunca \u015fey\u2026<\/p>\n
ne i\u00e7indi?<\/p>\n
Anlad\u0131m ki:<\/p>\n
\ud83d\udc49 Para, her \u015feyi sat\u0131n alabiliyor\u2026<\/p>\n
\ud83d\udc49 ama huzuru de\u011fil.<\/p>\n
Ben art\u0131k \u015funu istiyordum:<\/p>\n
Ne l\u00fcks masa\u2026<\/p>\n
ne pahal\u0131 restoran\u2026<\/p>\n
Sadece\u2026<\/p>\n
\ud83d\udc49 ailemle birlikte\u2026 kuru bir ba\u015f so\u011fan.<\/p>\n
Huzurla.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"